There seems to be a unknown secret when we sign up for motherhood...a part that I never recall reading about and yet it's fundamentally the hardest part for me and for many Mama's I encounter.
There have been moments in the last week (half term) where I have literally found myself breathless looking at my boys – it’s like my heart explodes with so much love, my chest gets so full and I lose my breath!
I sometimes manage to say it out loud and they give that look that I think only your children can…the one that otherwise would make me feel like you're from another planet!
I do just love them though – so much.
These moments tend to mostly come when they are still and silent and I guess that's not dissimilar to what I remember when they were babies and we'd spend hours trying to just get a moment and put them down and then proceed to spend all of that time watching them sleep or checking they were breathing.
I know it sounds awful or maybe I just think it does, but I guess it's in those quie...