It has been a bit of a rough few weeks! All the festive hype and the house being swallowed up by a horrible, horrible viral beast, but we made it and it's a NEW YEAR!
It doesn’t matter how organised I think I am or how much pre-prep I do, it always seems to just zoom on by and is somehow driven by these crazy expectations I place on myself.
So yesterday (still feeling pretty ill) it wasn’t that surprising to me that I had my annual New Year melt down.
I like to think of it like a bit of an emotional purge!
I kind of wish it would come prior to the 1st day of the year, but it doesn't work that way - it's a force beyond me, like some kind of force of nature – a sort of clearing the way for what is to come.
When it’s happening, I know just what it is. I know that it’s overwhelm and the inability to just take a breath, but nevertheless it feels fucking awful in that moment.
It’s that scary feeling of totally losing my shit. How can I (the counsellor, the Calm Birth School teacher, the Mother) be so irrational and not get a grip?
Well because I’m just like any other woman, Mum, Wife, girlfriend, daughter, Sister, friend, human…I sometimes lose it!
And you might find yourself losing it too, but it's OKAY!
Even though I've committed to regular mediation and I practice my breathing and I'm all about the affirmations - hell I teach other's about anxiety and stress, but I still lose it from time to time.
But the difference that all of the above makes to finding my way back is HUGE.
Which is what I regularly talk about in my classes. None of this is magic. You can read the books and attend the classes, but it's all in the practice - repetition is our friend.
Because when and if you find yourself losing your shit – you will have a much easier job of finding your inner calm when you have paved the way for all of the new beliefs carved in to your subconscious.
And you know, my new year purge isn't dissimilar to what I experienced in both of my pregnancies just before my boys made their journey earth-side and also at the point of birth (often described as transition).
I remember feeling that total overwhelm/crisis of confidence, but it was fleeting and was quickly replaced by a special indescribable kind of calm because I had put in the work - I had developed new habits and new ways of thinking and they were all in there ready to come to my rescue.
Like nature's way of clearing the way for these miracles - losing your shit can be the tipping point of something amazing happening! So on that note...here's to all the miracles of 2017 and if you fancy joining a course, get on board...there is still one place left for January.
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