So yesterday I was at the Bump and Baby Expo in York.
It was my first time and I spent weeks thinking about what I needed to take, what offers would be best etc. but when It happened, it was nothing like I imagined.
I found myself feeling incredibly vulnerable in this giant space – which was familiar, but from days gone by when I used to get dressed up and drink the day away at the races - this was indeed a very different day.
There were lots of lovely exhibitors. The ladies that surrounded me were super friendly and chatty, but I still felt this deep sense of unease.
Despite this - I took some deep breaths, didn't hide under the table and enjoyed the ‘Bump Gazing’.
It was after all a whole , condensed space filled with excited parents to be – some a little daunted by all of the offerings, but mostly smiley faces and babies galore. I LOVED IT.
What I loved a lot less was trying to ‘sell’ myself. This is something I’ve struggled with for a long time and although I’m constantly working to improve this discomfort, it’s still really there. I could talk until the cows come home about why I love the Calm Birth School course and all of the benefits, but when all is said and done - people are also investing in me.
When my new version of the Mother's Little Helper cards I've created arrived, I was kind of excited. I thought having something ‘actual’ to sell would be easier; something tangible that people can see and hold in their hands, but that wasn't the case either.
Because actually some people just didn’t get it.
They didn’t get why these little cards could help to transform your mindset during pregnancy and motherhood because they simply weren’t looking for that.
They were looking for fancy nappy covers and cool contraptions that promise to make your baby sleep for hours on end.
Which is all good.
And this isn't some sort of Debbie downer’ post – it’s really not, in fact quite the opposite!
Because I learned a really valuable thing today.
I realised how lucky I am to understand how powerful these things are. What a gift it is to see and feel the power of affirmations and a positive mindset and that this isn't simply a given.
This is one of the many reasons why I love hypnobirthing and one of the many ways that it was transformational for me.
So despite feeling pretty uncomfortable at moments today; I didn’t bolt out the door because this is my job and part of that is sharing my passion and I did that just by showing up.
I'm glad I did.
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